Letting Go

Gone are the days when baby would cry if she didn't see me. She went through this stage where she had separation anxiety. If I dared go to the bathroom or kitchen, she would follow me right away or else she would be hysterical (even if she was with her daddy). So that means my trip to the bathroom had to be quick, could not bathe without her opening the shower curtain or risk her getting burnt while she watches me cook. Tough eh? If I had to just throw the garbage and the door closes on her, she would think I am leaving her. But, no, I didn't bring her with me to the garbage disposal area in our building and just let her cry.

Now, tables have turned... since I have been working for over a week now! It was the first time she saw me leave yesterday and did not cry. She just waved goodbye while she was carried by daddy. I didn't know if I was exactly happy about that. Maybe this time, I am the one with separation anxiety! Some mothers feel this too when leaving their children.

So, after work, I told my hubby to make sure baby does not go to bed early and I rushed to go home to play with her for a bit. She laughed and giggled as soon as she saw me. That felt nice! She also learned a new trick from her dad recently, now baby knows how to frown. Looks kinda cute! After we watched her fave Boogiebeebies program (and dances to all the tunes), I fed her last bottle of milk for the day and put her to bed.

Now I'm less tired after seeing the smile on her face! Just a few minutes of play with baby before she dozes off is good for me...

Today, we are interviewing a potential nanny and hope it works out! It will be another thing when she becomes attached to her caregiver. Both mommy and daddy get upset when we see her attached to the someone who's not family but I guess that is normal. I guess you really can't have it all... Sigh!